Posts Tagged ‘beauty


a week of one day’s sunset — day 5

and this concludes our week of sunsets (and moonrises–i am incapable of leaving well enough alone.)

this was an evening of no ugliness.

no matter how hard you tried to find a flaw in what you were viewing (i wasn’t btw), there were none to be found. all points of the compass gave and gave you nothing but beauty.

a panorama even produced a delicate line of beauty (with a nod to hogarth.)

after the sun set and as i was walking back home, a patch of gaillardia (aka “blanket flower”, from the family asteraceae – sunflowers) called out to me, “take our picture, too! we’re worthy and just as beautiful as the sunset.” as it turned out, they were right.


rose and grasshopper* (decay)

think of it as an exit strategy.

*please see comments for correct identification of aforementioned insect.


my secret garden (i’m pitching this as a reality-tv series)

imagine this:

without the manufactured drama and the staged bitch fights. oh, there may be the occasional spat between the roses as they first bloom in the spring, but they’ll soon realize there’s no future in animosity.

they won’t take any trips to islands in the caribbean or exotic (to americans at least) countries in north africa. what would be the point when the setting for this series is as complex and remote and beautiful as the casbah/st. bart’s/ipanema?

there won’t be any talk of nipping and tucking, although every once-in-a-while a pair of pruning shears may make an unscheduled appearance.

instead, this series will offer viewers what only patience can provide, true beauty.


self-examination with comma splices


of course, it’s impossible to say for sure, but i don’t believe i’m at the end. quite the opposite, actually, it feels, often, that it’s always beginning. that there has been no middle, only the first few steps, a bit of a mess in a diaper, this person or that one helps you out of your funky toddler stage—and there may be a moment when you think “god, what a fuck this life has been, so close so many times, and yet nothing to show for it.” yes, i’m talking to you, but more often than not, i’m just talking to myself and only because i’m tall does anyone really take a moment to listen. the vapidity of it all could bring a lesser person down. i mean, it does bring a lot of people down, but not me so much. i scratch my head, maybe my balls too, as men do when they’re thinking (i like to envision goethe or kierkegaard doing it) — some in public, but most in private or only in front of their friends—it’s actually quite comical, isn’t it, ball-scratching that is; i’ve an associate who is constantly re-arranging his package even in the middle of a sentence regardless of the gender of those around him at the time—completely oblivious to the indelicate nature of the act of touching yourself in public—or is it? it appears i’ve slipped the chains of my intent, but fuck you, why not? isn’t that what makes life worth living, the digressions, the asides, the strange interlude as o’neill so gloriously (and boringly, really, have you ever dug through that mess of a play?) put it. by the way, comma splices are free today. so i stand in front of you, balls out, skin drooping — i had a jaw line once and cheekbones, bitch, and of course the lips raised many a sail, but not so much anymore. of course, you’ve never kissed me, but imagine that, my full lips pressed against yours, a bit of tongue and that flip your stomach does when you give up to the swoon of a kiss, i know you know, don’t try to avoid it, we all sexualize our interlocutors, what fun would it be if we didn’t i ask you? but back to that ending or beginning, but definitely not a middle: i wonder what it would be like to be beloved by many and not a few. that i had multiple heathcliffs and mr. darcy’s — really a long line of them — standing at my door all waiting their turn — or loving it (<3) into the hundreds with just the click of a mouse and a place where age didn’t matter as much, that the young, thinking that it could only happen to them (the selfish feeling of love and loss) when in fact, we’ve all been there, many of you (and me) more than once goddamn it. (my maternal grandmother rarely swore, but when she did, she would clinch her fists and spit out a “god damn it” in such a furious manner that you’d shield yourself from her rage — which lasted exactly as long as it took to say “god damn it.”) you thought you’d get off easy, didn’t you? that “oh another picture of that old fag, so desperate” and paragraph with about 500 words in it of his insufferable blather and that’s fine, i can handle it; i may never understand it, but i can manage it. but one day, if you live that long, you’ll know. gpoyw, the fuck you old man version, he said scratching his balls.


chaos beauty (random acts)

you just never know where you’re going to find it.

but be there for it and it will come to you.  (leaves and flower stamens on the sidewalk courtesy the bees swarming a california pepper tree up the street from my house.)


the chaos of beauty (random shadows)

i was struck by the beauty of the shadows that fell across my path a few days ago.


the exquisite sameness

it is always a safe subject.

it rarely stirs up passionate debate unless, of course, you’re a meteorologist.

the tv weathermen/women (those of the tight pencil skirts and plunging necklines, if the weather’s not interesting at least it can be provocative, no?) try so hard to make it something it’s not: exciting.

but there is an exquisite beauty to its sameness nonetheless, what with the occasional cloud floating by, the subtle changes of color of the sky/sea/surf/sand/mountains/faux tuscan architecture, all pink stucco and red tile roofs, iron gates and eucalyptus trees as the morning passes its mid-point and the afternoon sun warms your back, the shadows lengthen and gather, their dark, harsh edges fading with the sunset.



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